Friday, July 21, 2006
a question that i ask myself every now and then.. sometimes we're tempted to ask God "WHY must this or that happen to me?" maybe the question lies within ourselves.. me have not looked deep enough into ourselves when the problem actually lies within us.. putting the blame on others or on God may feel better.. but your conscience comes and prick u again:" it's actually YOU! why are u blaming others?" then when we are put all the blame on ourselves we break down.. well.. that's the thing we need to learn, to depend on God.. he may not be the one who brought the problem or trials.. but what's in His plan is the best for us as He promised..
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I open my eyes, i try see but i'm blinded by the white light.
I cant remember how,
I cant remember why am I in here tonight.
And I cant stand the pain, and I can make it go away!
No I cant stand the pain!!
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes, got nowhere to run!
The night goes on it starts fading away.
I'm sick of this life.
I just wanna SCREAM!!
How could this happen to me?
Everybody's screaming,
I try to make a sound but no one hears me.
I'm slipping of the edge,
I'm hanging by a thread,
I wanna start this over again.
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing matters,
and I cant explain what happened,
and I cant erase the things that I've done.
No I cant!
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes, got nowhere to run!
The night goes on it starts fading away
I'm sick of this life I just wanna SCREAM!!
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes, got nowhere to run!
The night goes on it starts fading away.
I'm sick of this lifeI just wanna SCREAM!!
How could this happen to me?
today will be my grand aunt's colon cancer operation.. committing all into His hands.. prayer and more prayer needed.. that's all that i can do at the moment.. today will also be my last day at the Gym!! i'm not going to miss it all that much.. it's my 2nd home man!! at least a visit there 2 times a week.. haha.. classical modules are next.. how how?! u expect us to start listening to lectures and tutorials now? u muz be joking la.. but.. what to do? i cant change the system or quit sch rite? haha.. just hope for the best..
feeling tired but unable to slp.. DOTA alr but not helping.. Bible read.. milk drunk.. maybe to hear a simple goodnight from u would do.. too stressed out? unlikely.. MP3 does not seem to have it's effect lately.. oh well.. guess i'll just go try and lie down and sing a lullaby or two.. sufficient slp is needed in order for your muscles to recover faster.. one of my motivation as my muscles tend to ache at night.. too much workout at night? haha..
I can see a rainbow, see a rainbow, see a rainbow too.................... zZzZzZ
longing for Your return!!
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